the big picture

i watched the clouds moved on the wide skies tonight..
like a free movie being played everynight,
all you need is to look up.
i watched the cars drove under the bridge today..
like a full news being told every morning,
all you need is to look down.
i watched people walked and crossed streets outside..
like a featured story documented every time,
all you need is to look around.

i watched them...thinking,who would be doing the same?
minding the millions of raindrops ready to fall from the sky tonight.
the numbers of safety belts unbuckled today.
those feet rushing late everywhere..

to the billions and one living that i've watched today ,
i was just thinking,
was someone watching back??

pain-freak

when silence takes a visit..
sobriety looms around..
when nothing throbs and shrieks..
no one even irks you out...
pain-free is pretty boring after all.

weekend ghost

you started as a habit i do for my saturdays.
you were like a dream that played through out the night.
you were a hangover the whole day next.
a vague hallucination in time of dusk.
then just like that, you were gone again by midnight.

love fills where words can't

the time of meeting you sickened me
that for the nth time we would be in a weird situation again
pressured to say something comforting at first
ending up telling strenuous words again and again..
tiring debacles of the past that actually did not make sense anymore.
the fact that you of all people, would not like it,
but we could not just help it.
we had gone tired and helpless,
yet for sure the moment we see each other we would be back doing just that...

or we might as well shut up and kiss.

the 'you' and the 'me'

back then,
i keep on finding 'me' in you.
by any means that i try, i'm losing.

now, i understand,
you cannot be the 'me'
i 'm the one who needs to be

i have to know
that you are just simply 'you'

perhaps, we will mean something.
something that feels better.

feels like winning atlast.

mime me

 

and i told myself i am reborn..

and i told myself i am alright..
and i told myself this is real..
and i told myself it is right..
and i told myself i am over..
and i told myself i am happy...

i just told myself.
i have yet to convince...

the rain tonight

the gloomy sky stares down at us like angry eyes observing its prey,
that anywhere we go its as if we would be caught unprepared for its ultimate strike.
we tend to be vigilant, taking our hopes as we look up and plead for impunity.
yet it would just glare back...contemplating.

and when darkness spills throughout this earth again...
the silent dread fills every space inside us.
even the cold walls and heavy roofs between us and nature shakes with apprehension.
until the stars hide behind thick clouds,
the wind blows a little stronger..
the rain pours a little harder..

the trees will dance again,
the land will duck..

until the water rises one more time.

we...all brace ourselves to watch..