Wednesday, September 30, 2009

friendly foe

hey has been a while.
i see you and now you see me.
it seems nothing has change.
we still are who we are.
and we know each other pretty well.

cold and distant.
we let ourselves be an outsider.
coz it seems better that way.
it feels safer that way.

but these thoughts are always aligned,
instincts unfailingly connected..
and it make us silent allies.
it looks better that way,
coz it feels safer that way.

this is the game we play.
the chase we run.

until when?
until where?
when no one dares to lose,
just look at us today.
how we discreetly beat each other up.
the pride we bear... the love we lose.

Tuesday, September 29, 2009

when dark clouds come out to play

i have no right to be so helpless..
no point of feeling heartbroken and alone..
this life is not even a hem of a disaster.

when right now,the storm out there overwhelms any sense i feel.
out there..are thousand times more helpless..
cold with no shelter.
out there..
thousand times hearts shattered..
thousand times more tragic.

so what is a little rain on me now?

Monday, September 28, 2009

the heavy storm

it is cold tonight..
and there's a chaos outside..
curled under my sheets.
i wait till it stop and warmth embrace me..

Friday, September 25, 2009


i see you through my mirror, checking yourself, getting ready for the day..
i see you on my street, with the wind on your face, and you playing along..
i see you in my bus, quietly staring afar, with the music in your ears..
i see you across my table, enjoying the meal, a smile on your face..
i see you on my bed, sitting by the bottom, getting ready for a goodnight..

how peculiar can it be..
that these things i used to see..
i could not notice.

but now, when every single thing around is not what it was then..
hence, i tend to sight it..
and it reminds me..

and so when i close my eyes..
only then, i see you.

Thursday, September 24, 2009

a sense of you

it is cold tonight, and all i have is a blanket to touch me.
sleep eludes me, when i can't even hear that ragged breathing.
my eyes still wide open, yet there is nothing there to see.
when the only thing i need is a sweet moment, bitter thought is all i have..
i try to sense a memory of you,
but it feels like i'm almost running out of it.

you are slowly fading in me...
and i can't help it.
even your scent is here no more.

Wednesday, September 23, 2009


wake up in a sunny morning.
get up and look at your awaken reflection.
walk down and greet the warm loving faces.
and remember, they are all you have.

in a world of fast hours, deadlines, and night lights!
there is a world of gentle moments, sweet conversation over the moonlight!

home. your heart is.

Friday, September 18, 2009

gone and free

not a trace of what is familiar,
yet it yields me..
not a sign of elation,
yet it reassures me..
far from the typical.
away from the social.

this feels like somewhere else.
yet the cure is here..

freedom of mind..
mending of heart..
cleansing of soul..

this is where i belong.

Thursday, September 17, 2009

a smile for an alibi

will it be too easy to just stop?

walk away and never come back?

to say no as an answer?

to be still and do nothing?

to forget?

to pretend?

it may be for others...

but not for me.

Wednesday, September 16, 2009

the 'you' today

i don't mind if its quiet
i don't care if i'm on my own
i am fine.

i don't really like silence.
i don't wanna be alone.
i am better with you.
this is who i am today..
and so are you.

Tuesday, September 15, 2009

the 'me' today

when no words seem to go along with 'me'.

no thoughts to make 'me' now.

no one to urge 'me'.

once again...

this 'me' is dying.

Saturday, September 12, 2009

guessing game

just leave if you want to..
just say it if you need to..

you can go..
you can tell me...

you don't need to hurt me this way
and still not knowing what is it you really want.

Friday, September 11, 2009

daddy's day

i remember well,
i am still a father's child..
for someone i am a kid anxious to run and hide under his embrace.

it's not just a celebration of a man's life,
it's a revelry of my existence.

the means

change takes me to a different level. feels right..

and i believe one day it will feel better.

Thursday, September 10, 2009

ifs, might haves and maybe...

if untangling meant comfort
we might have finished loose ends a long time ago.

if riding off meant freedom,
we might have left this place the very first chance we had.

if silence meant solitude,
we might have not be here from the very start.

but the ifs are the nots..

the might haves are just the same.

or maybe they really are as what they are stated..

we, just don't simply get it.

Tuesday, September 8, 2009

the aftershock

first jump was over.
somehow it felt calm,
firm and and on track.
i try to stand in solid ground,
walk slowly, turn safely, move sharply.

for in one single flaw i make,
in just a second or two..
this whole mass of me might shutter down to pieces.

Friday, September 4, 2009

when something ends, one begins

how many doors closed,
windows opened?

how many beds lay on,
ceilings chipped,
walls thickened?

how many bags filled,
wardrobe emptied?

how many strangers met,
loved once departed?

how many have passed?
how many more to come?

Wednesday, September 2, 2009

ends of the line

i'm going now (really)
i'll see you sometime (soon)
just call when you need something (later)
don't do something stupid (without me)
think of good thoughts (us)
you take care (always)
have a good life (ditto)

Tuesday, September 1, 2009

one of those days

and somehow i feel i want to know you again..
with these unexpected things of yours..

on a day like today..
you caught me again..completely.