Monday, November 30, 2009


when is a good time to believe and risk?
when is the right moment to leave and let go?
when is the possible way to be happy and free?
when is the best moment to trust and fall in love?

when you feel old. you are still young they say.
when you act young. you need to get old they say.
when is the limit of young, and when is the best part of old?

when either way you just badly want to know,when...
when is the right time for you?

Thursday, November 26, 2009

into deep

you have tested this water before.

to soak the tip of your toe once in awhile
is the farthest you could go.

no one wants to drown for the second time.

Wednesday, November 25, 2009

empty hall

when i walked out your door,
i wasn't planning on coming back.

i was hoping that you would run after...
knocking on mine.

Tuesday, November 24, 2009


hundred and one things
to say that i choose you.
two or three things
to say not to.
half of a one
holds me back.

it can never retrieved interests.

Monday, November 23, 2009

left of an ego

everytime i asked myself
to give it another chance.
everytime i told myself
to try it again.
everytime i pushed myself
to take that choice.

but whenever i do and risk it all over again.
it hits back like a deadly wave crashing.
it feels like a trap ready for ambush.
leaving me humbled and trashed in the end.

and everytime (it happens)
i comfort myself
to understand.
it is the only thing left to go back to.

Friday, November 20, 2009

broken piece

and when he took time to see her,
there was a smile on her face.
but when he made the time to listen,
there was already a frown on her voice.
when he came for a hug,
there was something wrong with her warmth.
and when he asked her to come back,
there was not a thought for her to stay.

when all things were done as best as both could.
hence, they did not know,
it was already too late.

Thursday, November 19, 2009


i can feel it in the cool air..
i can see it on the city lights..
i can hear it from the carols..

i start counting down the days..
something wonderful,
here it comes.

Wednesday, November 18, 2009


my role slowly fades.
my line's short and unimportant.
my face's slight to view.

a character at the start.
a part of the rising series.
a hem of the climax. and a glimpse after.

i lived in it once,
but now,
i am just a chapter about to be over.

it ain't my story anymore.
this time, i watch.
this time, you live and tell the ending.

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

make believe

i gather my thoughts at this very second..
winter, race car, island,
sea breeze, warm hands,
giggles and happy screams.

i am daydreaming again.

Monday, November 16, 2009


for a long time i seize to do..
i tried to open my hands and set things free..
i thought of regrets.
anticipated the emptiness.
but fear eluded me atlast..

it's simply amazing
how faith works in wonders.

i poured out what is left in me..
yet God flooded it back to overflow me.
blessings... i cannot seem to count.

Friday, November 13, 2009

the gift

have their music
to find hymn and be the best they can be.

some run for miles
and be the outmost version of their self.

some fly to the highest
to feel their feet on the ground.

others have the eyes for art.
have the hands to create.
have the minds to discover.
and they are known to be the greatest of our kind.

i have a few words to write once in a while.
and it's enough for my heart to beat,
and feel alive.

Thursday, November 12, 2009

2 am

i look up the stars above and make a smile.

cocktails, music, and laughter,
they are having a party in heaven.

while the earth sleeps around me,
as the night quietly passes.

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

define you

you meet two friends in life.

the ones who come and can perfectly spell you
with an F,
an R,
plus an E,N,D
and an S with an H-I-P.

and the ones,
that through times
when you cannot even bare to spell
the word anymore...

because even from a slight hunch,
they know it is still worth trusting.

Tuesday, November 10, 2009


we fail ourselves..
for sometimes we seek the freedom to be alone..
yet the very thought of it feels selfish..

why can't we be?
for atleast an hour, a day, a nightfall?
(why can't) for few moments,
guilt may give us a break?

Monday, November 9, 2009

old habits

it surprises me..

lying in bed, daydreaming.
pulling out a forgotten favorite book.
cooking a great meal for one.
watching a funny love story.
enjoying a Monday.
hearing an old friend.
laughing at an outdated joke.
saying something nice.
smiling for that thought.

old habits...
slowly come back to linger.
it feels familiar yet new all the same..

it feels warm.
i like it.

Friday, November 6, 2009


i start to forget citing you.
i start to stop wearing you.
i start to feel easy hearing you.
i start to be happy seeing you.
i start to be normal being with you.

and that's when i know,
we are right to be where we are.

Thursday, November 5, 2009

Father and child

i asked..
and i was answered..
i reached..
and i was held..
i weeped..
and i was comforted..
i confessed..
and i was forgiven..

i was dying..

and now.. i am saved..

Wednesday, November 4, 2009

it's time

i wish i won't lose my words today.
i am calm.
i am fine.
i have never been this fine,
on the idea of losing you.

Tuesday, November 3, 2009

final cut

what is pride when you still have the patience to understand.
what is apathy when you can be sensitive enough to feel.
what is sadness when you can try to let go and find peace.
what is fear when there is still courage to move on.
what is hurt when there is still love left to forgive.

i am at the edge of 'you n me'
and now, i'm ready to let go.

Monday, November 2, 2009

all soul's day

i am lost for words and thoughts...i'm sorry.