gift

I acknowledged my failures and weaknesses.
I have enjoyed my pain and sadness.
My struggles and trials are all part of the peak..

I am blessed for He had given me what I wanted.

I have always prayed to be a better person.

the other way

when you knew you have done enough...
and love could not go your way.
to say goodbye and walk away,
to let go, to forget...
it seems it has always been the next thing to do..
but does it have to? do we need to?

there is no rule to stop and give up on love
nature doesn't say so..

now...

let's do these together.

grace

no space to lack...my hands are full so is my heart.

you overwhelm me, i cannot seem to contain.

happiness

don't let shadows cast your sun...

happiness..
is not just a feeling..
it is an action...a state of mind.

smiles

I doodled around...
and played with colors and shapes
until i created
happy thoughts and future memories.

trip

i will fly away from here.
i have longed to visit myself in a very far place.

over the clouds

there is chaos in here somewhere.

there is fear, pain and doubts.

there is peace out there somewhere.

there is courage, healing and trust.

there is a me in here somewhere...

there is a you out there somewhere.

archive

i have closed your book.
never to be opened and read again.
the plot has ended. the author is done.

another thing to archived in my heart.

cold

warm this heart...
i'm barely feeling.

close doors

all i could say was...

'it could have been me.'

beginning

and the time finally comes to ask...

when can i meet 'the me' again?
back when 'she' was with you..
i like 'her' very much to show up again.

eros

in a distance
i can feel you..
yet when you're near..
something is amiss.

i don't want to linger anymore.
i want to lure and seek.

passing

we go through still waters and silent air...
the days seem to be older by the minute
yet we take our time.

let's not be afraid.

disorient me

it has always been the same whenever 'you' comes up...
lost.

let's stop walking to nowhere..
take off the blindfolds and show me the way to go.
or perhaps, open the gates..i will help myself out.

over

it seems words elude...so does feelings.

fork

i wish you well.
i am walking on.

when do we end to start??

principles of me

i don't own my fears,

disappointments

and pain..

why bother keeping it?

i make mistakes in the past,

paranoia in the present

and  disillusions of the future.

i don't even own my pride,

so why waste being heavy?

when there is a will to release..

there is a choice of freedom.

nobody can judge you but God Himself,

that's the only act you need to deliver.

full moon

waiting for your world to change...

intuition

the truth need not to come from your senses.


your instincts tells it best..
 
why buy your lies when what's real comes out of you for free... you don't even know it.

where are you?

can you hear you?

can you see you?

can you feel you?

most of the time,

nothing seems to jive

your senses falters.

but there is that moment,

when you laugh,

smile, and touch...

for real.

there you are.

conclusion

you've pushed me over the cliff,
to a raging waves of water...
yet i float, yet i breath,
and conquer.

thank you.
you made me feel so alive,
you can kill me no more...
nor hurt me for that matter.

nth sense

I can see there is still some sense left in you..

I don't trust it.

fray

walking through time..

wishing a better place.

one year

a hundred days ago...i felt wrong..

bits and pieces i can only retrieve from a broken memory bank..

what is old??
what is not?
what is sad?
what is i?

a hundred days later...am i still?

now

i can never know what is beyond,

to hope is good enough.

august

something wonderful,
i feel you coming.

i can wait.

weirdness of we

play of words, tangled acts,

sync rhythm of our lives...

this is what 'we' is all about.

both

wishing you...
wishing me...

hate

It was when I met the worst of 'me' that I felt best.

Conquer your fears...even your hate.

human

we are who we are..
born to be vulnerable.

step

small steps can go new places and extreme heights..

remember we are giants.

stars

In need of a better me.

deaf

we could talk all day and not get any..
or we can shut up and be still..
until we know what this is all about.

mute

not a hundred thousand words to fill in this steady silence...
with this steely purpose.

music

you are simply an addiction.

i can't get enough..
until it kills me...

10pm

we leave the same place everyday...
yet we always go back as a different person.

someone better...
always.

another day

what i like about 'today' is we try to make up for what was not enough of yesterday.

We always have a chance every second. A better one.

go

tired..

i need to take my destiny and run with it!

hidden

when you don't know who you really are...It's all bluff to everyone else.

interlude

i need your music against this screamin' silence.

trust

I need to believe that this is worth something really good.

take away

something sucked the life out of me...

take it back..please...
i need my 'happy' me back.

backup

when all else fails..
faith saves.

truth

fly free..

you can hurt me no more.

downer

and just like that the week is over...
the wheel is turning the other way again.
I need to be ready.

worries

the thing is..
this issue will still be here tomorrow..
me dealing with it..

so..i'll just be back then.

I and want

Fear. I want to lack.
Readiness. I want to have.
Unseen. I want to elude.
Loved. I want to be.

pathetic

your behavior is deflecting..

it's humanly good..
and it scares me.

friend

just as the time you arrived,
it is the same as you left....
you went in and out of our lives
like a total shock.


you never really failed to surprise us.
either way..we love you just the same.

the final game

if it means someone will trully find happiness after this...

well losing is not that bitter after all.

blessings

to hear.
listen.
feel.
understand.
speak.
care.
love.

it's amazing how people do it in the easiest of ways...

when you want to be happy. you can do everything.

the point

get your angst together,
and swing it away.

release.
please.

the play

we have already gone to everyside of this playground.

let's stop playing the game.
let's start winning it.

clarity

i wish i can just wipe away the smudge..

where?
on my window or yours?

shout out

You are all that I live for.
Clean my heart and soul,
(for me) to be able to find forgiveness,
understanding and love amidst this fray.

the great pair

it feels right when you know it's right...
it feels nothing when you want it to be nothing.
it feels special when you think it's special.
it feels real when you dare it to be real.

heart and brain always work together...
so please never betray each other.

swing

I will just be here.

mastering the dance

in your deranged music.

two years from now

there is nothing more depressing than
not be able to talk about anything deeper than
'what is for dinner?'

if life seems to be this way onwards,
soon...no one is gonna be here to stay.

two years after

I feel happy.
I don't know why, but I am.

Life has always been tough,
but blessings keep pouring.

Faith keeps me happy.

two years ago

how to appease someone who is facing an unexpected encounter.
i do not know.

from the start to the end...
we just need to deal.

the rescue

i can't really dig the understanding i so need..

i'm seeking for your words...

let it save me.

you and me

I couldn't remember when we met..
I couldn't remember the firsts of everything we do together..
the important dates and events..
the gifts and souvenirs...
don't ask me..it doesn't matter.

You.
Me.
We are who we are today..
because of forgotten things of each other.

I don't care..
as long as there is you and me. here. today.

love letter

Dear me,

I need to be my other self now..
A smile upon a face is what I want to see.
Peace. Love. Grace.
Please let me be.

Love,

me

tomorrow

i used to say...
if only we can go back to when all was fine and simple.

now..
i wanna be in tomorrow...
or the next day and the next.
when we can be so much better
than who we are today.

reminder

'a steadfast love transcends all understanding...'

cease asking for a reason..
walk on my friend..
don't stop now.
we are getting there.

the flaw

this is all me.
i can be better than this...
but never (ever) lesser.

don't treat me like i haven't learned a thing.
i may be wiser than you.

view of an end

how to trust without having doubts.
how to deal without feeling betrayed.
how to understand without any given reason.

don't push more than where i am today..
i can see an ending.

to drop you and everything else,

with nothing more in me to feel...
you won't be worth it by then.

last call

i breath an air of strength,
picked a handful of hope,
and tied my faith tightly.

i'm ready to pick you up whenever.

sad day

i don't know the girl today..
she scares me and i don't like it.

anger is the weakest thing in me.
i can't handle.
it's the saddest feeling ever.