Tuesday, December 14, 2010


I acknowledged my failures and weaknesses.
I have enjoyed my pain and sadness.
My struggles and trials are all part of the peak..

I am blessed for He had given me what I wanted.

I have always prayed to be a better person.

the other way

when you knew you have done enough...
and love could not go your way.
to say goodbye and walk away,
to let go, to forget...
it seems it has always been the next thing to do..
but does it have to? do we need to?

there is no rule to stop and give up on love
nature doesn't say so..

let's do these together.

Tuesday, November 30, 2010


no space to lack...my hands are full so is my heart.
you overwhelm me, i cannot seem to contain.

Wednesday, November 24, 2010


don't let shadows cast your sun...

is not just a feeling..
it is an action...a state of mind.

Friday, November 19, 2010


I doodled around...
and played with colors and shapes
until i created
happy thoughts and future memories.

Wednesday, October 27, 2010


i will fly away from here.
i have longed to visit myself in a very far place.

Tuesday, October 26, 2010

over the clouds

there is chaos in here somewhere.
there is fear, pain and doubts.

there is peace out there somewhere.
there is courage, healing and trust.

there is a me in here somewhere...
there is a you out there somewhere.


i have closed your book.
never to be opened and read again.
the plot has ended. the author is done.

another thing to archived in my heart.

Wednesday, October 20, 2010


warm this heart...
i'm barely feeling.

Wednesday, October 6, 2010

close doors

all i could say was...

'it could have been me.'

Monday, October 4, 2010


and the time finally comes to ask...

when can i meet 'the me' again?
back when 'she' was with you..
i like 'her' very much to show up again.


in a distance
i can feel you..
yet when you're near..
something is amiss.

i don't want to linger anymore.
i want to lure and seek.

Wednesday, September 22, 2010


we go through still waters and silent air...
the days seem to be older by the minute
yet we take our time.

let's not be afraid.

Wednesday, September 8, 2010

disorient me

it has always been the same whenever 'you' comes up...

let's stop walking to nowhere..
take off the blindfolds and show me the way to go.
or perhaps, open the gates..i will help myself out.

Tuesday, September 7, 2010


it seems words elude...so does feelings.

Thursday, September 2, 2010


i wish you well.
i am walking on.

Wednesday, September 1, 2010

when do we end to start??

Monday, August 30, 2010

principles of me

i don't own my fears,
and pain..
why bother keeping it?
i make mistakes in the past,
paranoia in the present
and  disillusions of the future.

i don't even own my pride,
so why waste being heavy?
when there is a will to release..

there is a choice of freedom.

nobody can judge you but God Himself,
that's the only act you need to deliver.

Friday, August 27, 2010

full moon

waiting for your world to change...

Wednesday, August 25, 2010


the truth need not to come from your senses.

your instincts tells it best..
why buy your lies when what's real comes out of you for free... you don't even know it.

Tuesday, August 24, 2010

where are you?

can you hear you?
can you see you?
can you feel you?

most of the time,
nothing seems to jive
your senses falters.

but there is that moment,
when you laugh,
smile, and touch...
for real.

there you are.


you've pushed me over the cliff,
to a raging waves of water...
yet i float, yet i breath,
and conquer.

thank you.
you made me feel so alive,
you can kill me no more...
nor hurt me for that matter.

Wednesday, August 18, 2010

nth sense

I can see there is still some sense left in you..

I don't trust it.

Friday, August 13, 2010


walking through time..

wishing a better place.

Thursday, August 12, 2010

one year

a hundred days ago...i felt wrong..

bits and pieces i can only retrieve from a broken memory bank..

what is old??
what is not?
what is sad?
what is i?

a hundred days later...am i still?

Wednesday, August 11, 2010


i can never know what is beyond,

to hope is good enough.

Monday, August 2, 2010


something wonderful,
i feel you coming.

i can wait.

Wednesday, July 28, 2010

weirdness of we

play of words, tangled acts,

sync rhythm of our lives...

this is what 'we' is all about.

Monday, July 26, 2010


wishing you...
wishing me...

Wednesday, July 21, 2010


It was when I met the worst of 'me' that I felt best.

Conquer your fears...even your hate.

Monday, July 19, 2010


we are who we are..
born to be vulnerable.

Thursday, July 15, 2010


small steps can go new places and extreme heights..
remember we are giants.

Wednesday, July 14, 2010


In need of a better me.

Tuesday, July 13, 2010


we could talk all day and not get any..
or we can shut up and be still..
until we know what this is all about.

Monday, July 12, 2010


not a hundred thousand words to fill in this steady silence...
with this steely purpose.

Thursday, July 8, 2010


you are simply an addiction.

i can't get enough..
until it kills me...

Wednesday, July 7, 2010


we leave the same place everyday...
yet we always go back as a different person.

someone better...

another day

what i like about 'today' is we try to make up for what was not enough of yesterday.

We always have a chance every second. A better one.

Monday, July 5, 2010



i need to take my destiny and run with it!

Saturday, July 3, 2010


when you don't know who you really are...It's all bluff to everyone else.


i need your music against this screamin' silence.

Thursday, July 1, 2010


I need to believe that this is worth something really good.

Wednesday, June 30, 2010

take away

something sucked the life out of me...

take it back..please...
i need my 'happy' me back.

Tuesday, June 29, 2010


when all else fails..
faith saves.

Monday, June 28, 2010


fly free..

you can hurt me no more.

Friday, June 25, 2010


and just like that the week is over...
the wheel is turning the other way again.
I need to be ready.

Thursday, June 24, 2010


the thing is..
this issue will still be here tomorrow..
me dealing with it..

so..i'll just be back then.

Wednesday, June 23, 2010

I and want

Fear. I want to lack.
Readiness. I want to have.
Unseen. I want to elude.
Loved. I want to be.

Tuesday, June 22, 2010


your behavior is deflecting..

it's humanly good..
and it scares me.

Monday, June 21, 2010


just as the time you arrived,
it is the same as you left....
you went in and out of our lives
like a total shock.

you never really failed to surprise us.
either way..we love you just the same.

Friday, June 18, 2010

the final game

if it means someone will trully find happiness after this...

well losing is not that bitter after all.

Thursday, June 17, 2010


to hear.

it's amazing how people do it in the easiest of ways...

when you want to be happy. you can do everything.

Wednesday, June 16, 2010

the point

get your angst together,
and swing it away.


Tuesday, June 15, 2010

the play

we have already gone to everyside of this playground.

let's stop playing the game.
let's start winning it.

Monday, June 14, 2010


i wish i can just wipe away the smudge..

on my window or yours?

shout out

You are all that I live for.
Clean my heart and soul,
(for me) to be able to find forgiveness,
understanding and love amidst this fray.

Friday, June 11, 2010

the great pair

it feels right when you know it's right...
it feels nothing when you want it to be nothing.
it feels special when you think it's special.
it feels real when you dare it to be real.

heart and brain always work together...
so please never betray each other.

Wednesday, June 9, 2010


I will just be here.

mastering the dance
in your deranged music.

two years from now

there is nothing more depressing than
not be able to talk about anything deeper than
'what is for dinner?'

if life seems to be this way onwards,
soon...no one is gonna be here to stay.

Tuesday, June 8, 2010

two years after

I feel happy.
I don't know why, but I am.

Life has always been tough,
but blessings keep pouring.

Faith keeps me happy.

Monday, June 7, 2010

two years ago

how to appease someone who is facing an unexpected encounter.
i do not know.

from the start to the end...
we just need to deal.

Thursday, June 3, 2010

the rescue

i can't really dig the understanding i so need..

i'm seeking for your words...

let it save me.

Wednesday, June 2, 2010

you and me

I couldn't remember when we met..
I couldn't remember the firsts of everything we do together..
the important dates and events..
the gifts and souvenirs...
don't ask me..it doesn't matter.

We are who we are today..
because of forgotten things of each other.

I don't care..
as long as there is you and me. here. today.

Tuesday, June 1, 2010

love letter

Dear me,

I need to be my other self now..
A smile upon a face is what I want to see.
Peace. Love. Grace.
Please let me be.


Monday, May 31, 2010


i used to say...
if only we can go back to when all was fine and simple.

i wanna be in tomorrow...
or the next day and the next.
when we can be so much better
than who we are today.


'a steadfast love transcends all understanding...'

cease asking for a reason..
walk on my friend..
don't stop now.
we are getting there.

Thursday, May 27, 2010

the flaw

this is all me.
i can be better than this...
but never (ever) lesser.

don't treat me like i haven't learned a thing.
i may be wiser than you.

Wednesday, May 26, 2010

view of an end

how to trust without having doubts.
how to deal without feeling betrayed.
how to understand without any given reason.

don't push more than where i am today..
i can see an ending.

to drop you and everything else,
with nothing more in me to feel...
you won't be worth it by then.

Tuesday, May 25, 2010

last call

i breath an air of strength,
picked a handful of hope,
and tied my faith tightly.

i'm ready to pick you up whenever.

Monday, May 24, 2010

sad day

i don't know the girl today..
she scares me and i don't like it.

anger is the weakest thing in me.
i can't handle.
it's the saddest feeling ever.