Tuesday, June 30, 2009

up and away

grow wings and fly free.
no 'where' is too far to reach.
no 'thing' is too hard to have.
no 'body' is too weak to do.

conquer your fear,
heaven is just a breath away.

Friday, June 26, 2009

pain supplements

everything in me screams to the exhilarating pain i feel..
that for once my body seems to betray me.
stoned and delirious now..
i need an antidote to fix me..

a doze of sarcasm and temper perhaps..
tormenting worries and grudges..
the pill i take from you...
the drug i couldn't cease.

you're the cure i want to have..
but you become a sickness i need to outlive.

Wednesday, June 24, 2009

sweet pain

whenever you come near
doing simple things..
making senseless talks..

like everything's cool
like everything's right..

i hate it you know..
coz everytime i feel a brush of you..

just like that,
i'm back and lost in you again.

Tuesday, June 23, 2009

slow goodbye

by the way i move,
the step i take,
the look i make,
the things i say..

my breathing.
my heartbeat.
and even my smile...

i can feel it.
i'm slowly fading...

Monday, June 22, 2009

final chase

if you turn around and look
will there still be something to see?
scent or shadows...
the traces of me..

i am stopping now.
no plans of staying..
no plans of chasing you back.

Friday, June 19, 2009

bitter pill

bored and tired
same drag you try to rub on my face
over and over
i think it's time to stop
time to leave things be...
no one here to bear you anymore
nothing in me to save you..
i got no more to regret.
no loss for you..
there's nothing here to miss anyway.

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

the jigsaw game

every inch of me craves to know every details of you.
memorize all your folds and carve it in my mind.
every point that forms your lines...
every line that connects your angles..
every angle that completes your entirety.

the entirety that makes the piece of a puzzle..
the puzzle of me.

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

'fix up' day

hands numb and useless.
eyes drooping to sleep.
feel the lungs complaining,
the heart burning.

i don't feel well.
yet i'm completely sober.

Monday, June 15, 2009

lost in nothingness

i don't know anymore...

Friday, June 12, 2009

here is nowhere

there are days when i want to run
untangle myself from all the things around me..
go farther away where no one can judge me.
there are days when i stay
drift myself with time and leave everything be..
right in front of my face, right on the palm of my hands.

what happened yesterday?
and what comes tomorrow?
what now?

i'm here.
i feel free yet unmoving..
wise but uncertain..
loyal yet distant.
i want to go..
but i badly dream of staying.
i am still...
until someone takes me away..
or someone holds me down.

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

wishful thinking

if only i can do magic to give you what you're looking for. .
i believe i can.
you just don't believe in magic.

Tuesday, June 9, 2009

incurable addiction

calm lake rippled by gentle coming..
the beauty of free heaven mirrored down on clear waters..
the extreme bliss that compares nothing else..
the most sensible pain that made it real..
the intimacy that no one transcends..
it's intoxicating my soul...

come stand and ride..
come fly.

Monday, June 8, 2009

the adjectives of me

demented. jealous. anxious.
were not parts of the vocabularies 'of' me.
but now i learnt to spell it in you.

perceptive. practical. steadfast.
i learnt to master the words.

monday miseries

walking today
same route same steps
throw that trash in the bin now
our day's about to start
my coffee's ready to be picked now
my lift's here to take me up to the sky
get a grip, make it slow,
take a breath, here it goes...
it is that time of the week again
welcome..this is another trip to the empty field.

Thursday, June 4, 2009

messed-up love

nothing like cute things and mushy moments..
too far from fancy love stories with 'happily ever after' endings..
way beyond blushing looks and conscious giggles..

falling is complex, tough and delirious..

yet it is real and happening...somehow it's worth the try.

Wednesday, June 3, 2009


we both fit in each other's curves and yet we don't stick.