anger management

you don't get angry
not because you're too nice
you don't feel bitter
not because you're too satisfied to be
you are not miserable
just because it's simple not to be.

it's how you address that upcoming uncomfortable feeling
that you don't seem to understand..
you don't seem to like
you forsee,
you  plan,
you deal,
you execute.
it's dead before it even reached you in full..

or the easier way...
do nothing..
and die miserably.

i dreamt of you last night..
i was wide awake the whole time...

ghost of valentines past

what reminds me of today..


out of all the days...we have decided to broke each others heart..

grunge memories

oh the world love you right..

when you create the words 'late, rest, friend, mud, bleach' together and it makes a lot sense, oh it does make a perfect sense..

the 'memoria' spoken over and over like a lullaby to calm

and it's all true...all real as you are..
and we said we get it..we know you...
but you were keeping one secret for so long until you just took off like that..

 you do have the gun
and we all thought we understand...

no apologies here

i know i'm late,
i'm not sorry.

i know i forgot,
i'm not sorry.

i know i hurt,
i'm not sorry.

but i'm real,
i'm ready,
i'm present.

it's easy to say sorry when it is right to say and do..
(that's why) i'm not sorry.
don't let me be.

art of pretension

i pretend to be unaware
i pretend to be far sighted
i pretend to lose my hearing at times
i pretend to be cold, vague, bored...

or is it just i pretend to pretend?